So its Sunday... Football day... Bears day... But, just like it was last weekend... This sunday isn't a happy giddy one. becuase theres other things going on right now, that overshadows any joy i might feel about watching the bears play football.
Jaden was planning on leaving as soon as she got up today... well, maybe she did just get up at 1045... but i doubt it... I figured she'd probably get stuck talking a little more with Aces parents and end up doing breakfast... but i hadn't expected this late... and then to get a reply to my 'good morning' text with a '.smirks. oh yeah... good morning. on the road now, might be 15 minutes late :(' text... well, does that mean she forgot to message me? forgot she'd said she was leaving early? forgot the game was today?
Idk...
She and Ace were chatting online till very late last night... Guess he's changed his mind again already about not wanting to talk or be friends with her anymore. I'm glad that it at least sounded like it was going well. As long as she's happy, ya know?
She said she's in heavy think mode right now... Not about what, so it could be about us and the apt, or him and whatever they takled about, both, or neither... Idk... Not something i should get worked up over or worried about... just one more thing i don't have a lick of control over. She's going to think about stuff and she'll come to a conclusion on it, and i'll have to accept whatever it is that comes through.
*le sigh*
Well, its time to get ready for the day... get ready for the game... and try to be happy.
Well, she's back... safe. And thats enough for me. Yes, she did walk in already on the phone with Ace... And yes, she's still on the phone with him now... And yeah i'm disapointed, but not for the reasons i used to be... I understand we're not together or on the way to being together anymore so it doesn't bother me that she's talking to him... Just that i've been waiting all morning to see her... and waiting to watch the game with her... and she was supposed to be in think mode on the way home... not talk with Ace mode. So, little bit of hard feelings, but its not the same as it used to be, and its certainly not something i can't get over.
Bears are up 10 to 3 and thats music to my ears so far. I'm hungry but hamburger is still thawing so i've got to wait a bit before thinking about eating any lunch. First quarters over... quick commercial break and then itll be time for some more bears football. and that is what todays got to be about for me,right now...
We might talk about Jaden and Gauge stuff later, and we might not... but for now its got to be about the bears.... so thats what its gonna be.
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