hmm... Gonna be quick this morning have some hazardous package handling training to attend... Then home to straighten up for a bit... then off to moms place to do dinner w lex n mom n grandma.
.sneezes. i hope that stops soon, too.
on a less pleasant note... wtf was up with those dreams last night. I did not like them one bit. not one bit at all.
And, on a side note.... did she really pull away from me when i tried to kiss her last night.... or was it jusut a coincidence of the way the sheets were wrinkling?
Well... time to get dressed so that the day might get under-way.
see you all later... maybe.
We'll that training was pretty much a waste... basically told us everything a monkey would know... what is a suspicious package? - one without a return label, excessive postage, powder or oily residue... oddly shaped, poorly addressed or handwritten... sent to a title, but no name... etc... duh. What do you do? call supervisor, security, 911... don't mess with it... don't sniff it, don't eat it... wow. out friggen standing.
heh, least we got out an hour early... and i did get paid for it... so i can't complain too loudly....
SO now on to the rest of the day... wait till 1530 when jaden comes home... enjoy some time here around the apt before taking off to go to moms... have dinner/see grandma for a bit... come back here tonight, see when i get home to depend on what goes on.... and then sleep before laundry/game on sunday! hooray!
Nothing else new to add really... ignoring/trying not to remember last nights dreams still... not sure how to react/approach the kiss debacle last night yet... and still wondering if its even appropriate to bring up the jaden/ace thing before she leaves, and if so what i want to ask/say...
So, until later, again, take it easy y'all.
So thats that, huh... At moms place now, did dinner with her and grandma... sister took off to go to a club with her boy toy...
*sighs*
I just want to go home now... though... and Jadens not even there. Shes at a friend of ours' place... I was invited but had prior obligations here... But they just put in a movie... and now they're pausing the movie to go pick up a turkey... so she's not going to be home until later now...
She said she'd thought i'd stop by there when i got into town... But... At the same time, she says things like we need to do things on our own and that she wants to do things by herself to have .her. time...
So what am I supposed to do about that? How am I supposed to react or respond to that...? Am I supposed to give her her space like she talks about needing? Or do i go there and hang out like she's asking? she shoots straight and says what she means... but she's saying two different things...
Truth is i just don't know. And theres probably no right answer... If i do go there, I'm just going to be counting down till we go home... i'm already a bit tired... and yes i like the movie they're watching and i enjoy their company... but... Something just isnt' feeling right between me and her right now... at least i feel that way...
IDK, IDK, IDK.
I just don't know.
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